Not my will, but Thine will be done

Have you ever had one of those times where your not quite sure what it is your suppose to do with your life? I'm sure many of you have and I am not alone in this journey. But it is striking me so hard lately, that I can really say I'm just not sure. I know I enjoying speaking to women, but I don't get paid for that right now. I'm still considered a newbie and love the seeds I'm sowing for my future. But with these economic times it doesn't pay the bills. Trust me I go around and around in my mind..."where is your faith Michelle. If anyone can restore your husbands business, He can. Just stay in my will" Ugh, it's so hard to stay put and not do anything and watch my husband struggle to make ends meet sometimes. The burden is so heavy on him right now. God will make a way where there seems to be no way I keep telling myself! Even in the trying of doing things myself is unsuccessful. Let's see I've applied at Macy's, Gap Distribution Center and most recently as a Marketing Director with a real estate company I am licensed with. I have an education, I have experience, I have, I have and nothing!! And then God comes in a says, "Be still and know that I am God." And my flesh says, I know Lord, but today we woke up with our cell phones turned off. Last week it was not sure we had money for groceries. We only had $14 to our name because contractors were coming up with so many stories as to why they couldn't pay us. Oh, oh and don't forget the week before that I was sitting in my house for a day with no electricity, praying that somehow we would get money to turn it back on before the kids got back from school!! Oh...but the God of our tight-places has brought us out through it all and will continue to bring us out! Jose received money from a builder that day to turn the lights and heat back on! Thank you Jesus! We might have had $14 that week for groceries, but we were together as a family that day only to receive another check the next day! God you taught us how to appreciate what we have and the cost of it. And yes, we turned our cellphones back on today. We had money in the bank for that!

So God I thank you for bringing us through. We're not out yet, but I know that like an olive is pressed only to drip oil through the pressing, through the tight-places the "gallons" of oil we are producing is only for YOUR GLORY!!

Lord...not my will, but Your will be done!